Regrets... AKA Life goes on...

This blog entry's gonna be crap. No sentence structure whatsoever. Once again, don't like, don't read... Anyway, I'm back in Thailand now... The past few days has been a blur... We cremated my grandma yesterday. Guess she really is dead. Reality sinks in... It should have long ago but even now, I still can't really believe she's gone...

Regrets: The title for my blog entry today. Throughout the years, I did a lot of things that I thought I regret. But the loss of my grandmother makes me realize that I don't know the true meaning of it.

I have 3 main regrets now:
1) Not flying back to see my grandma in hospital when I should have done so.
2) Not stopping the 'people' (the workers and machine at the crematarium) from cremating her (Never mind that it's nigh impossible)
3) Not cherishing her when I have the chance.

And my grandma's death is like a wake up call. Now I realize what's important to me. Her death is past now. It's time for me to move on and continue living as best as I can...

Lesson Learned:
1) Cherish the family that I still have. Family ties are still the most important. Never mind that we can quarrel and all.
2) Never regret anything. It's the worse feeling to have. From now on, so as not to regret again, I will do anything that I want to. No regrets: my new motto.

So right now, I have to think of an excuse (anyone volunteer any ideas?) to have a family gathering. It's time to pull everybody together, even families that have not been in much contact. Of course, It will have to be held when I come back. Hm... Maybe I can use my coming back as an excuse. A Welcome Back party.

Haiz... Its late already. I have work tomorrow. Life goes on... Heh, It takes the loss of my grandma to let me learn a few lessons...